Ever have a week where you sit and pause and think where the fuck did the last 13 years of my life go? I have. This week has emotionally drained the fuck outta me. All started on Wednesday when a certain someone came back into my life. I had for the most part forgotten bout this person but people have strange ways of creeping up into our lives again. Its been tough. Being filled with emotions i swore i forgot about and thinking bout how times were different then and how young i was. Been pondering how different i would be with him still in my life and how much happier my family would be. I guess its really true. Everyone needs a male role model and he was def. it. WHen i lost him i had noone. Still kinda feel that way but that just goes with feeling lonely. WIsh i could know if i made him proud cuz the fact not knowing has been driving me fuckin insane this whole week. I believe thats my problem(s).... Im so used to trying to impress everyone that the fact i cant is making me get down on myself. Those that know me know how i've been struggling with that shit for a long time. Its way easier said then done and those that say otherwise can go get hit by a car. I guess thats all I got. ENjoy the rest of your "overated overpriced day of fake ass love to prove to that someone u still care for them even though u already should the rest of the fucking year" day