So today is that dreaded day I have not been looking forward to since last year. Last year on this very day is when my life started going downhill and last year to this day was the fucking kickstart to my downfall. I lost someone who meant the fucking world to me and i lost her unexpectedly. The worst part is i never had the chance to say goodbye. I did but not the way anyone wants to say goodbye to a loved one. Chica i think bout u every day and miss you so much. You'll always be that lil puppy i once saved and loved for. I'll never stop loving u and like i said when i said goodbye......... I cant wait to see you when i get up there. It will be like u never left. Its hard without u here and it hurts me to know ur gone but i know ur in a better place. I fucking miss you so much. Thanks for being so good to me. I'll always love you.


With 2008 done tomorrow i wanna compare to how i was last year. Last year i was a depressed mess working a shitty fucking job ( thats right i said it) with no future in mind being miserable as shit and feeling worthless as shit. So for the most part of the year i was a fucking bum doing nothing but staying at home being locked up in this fucking house. Then i got smart. I went back to school. I found a really good job which i enjoy and happy everyday to go back to. I picked myself up from rock bottom and now stand strong with my head looking up with nothing to fucking get in my way. Im so proud of where i became cuz who knows where i'd be. So fuck you 1st half of 08 and hello 09. 09 i have a good feeling its gonna be the shit.